I had a great time in scientology for many years. I really believed we were making a difference and clearing the planet. It wasn't until I was asked to do something that was out-tech, off policy and just plain WRONG that I rebelled. I was immediately put under a non-enturb order, declared SP and dumped at the bus station in the middle of the night without being allowed to say goodbye to my family, with no money, no ID and nowhere to go except back to the family I had not seen for 15 years.
At first, I was sure it was all a mistake and just some SP on the line who didn't want me to tell on her. Then, I was writing and writing and going for review comm-evs and trying to get it straightened out. I was sure the SPs would be declared and I would get an apology.
After a while I got on the Internet, and read all the stories and websites I could for days and weeks and months. At first it was easy to blame DM and current management.
The more I learned the more I realized it was all a scam, and Hubbard was NOT who he said he was.
It is a pretty big betrayal to find out you have been had by one of the biggest liars and con-men of all time.
You get really mad!
I relate my experience to the KUBLER ROSS "Stages of Greif"
DENIAL- when you still want to believe it isn't true.
ANGER- when you figure out is is true.
BARGAINING-when you try to find a way to salvage something out of it.
DEPRESSION-when you feel really sad and stupid and sorry for ever believing in it.
ACCEPTANCE-when you figure out you can't change the past but you can change the future.
I think alot of the Freezoners are really good and caring people, but they are stuck at one of the stages and aren't willing to look right now. There are a few who are just using the tech and these boards for their own selfish reasons. Those are the ones who jump all over newbies (like they did to me) and troll for customers.
I don't think there IS a baby in the septic tank of scientology. If there ever was, it long ago died of methane gas poisoning.
I agree that scientology management is suppressive, but I take it one step further. I think LRH was the source of all of that suppression.
Maybe some times it helps to offer the "gains" of the "bridge" to someone who thinks the only problem is current management.
But the truth about LRH is even more damning than the truth about current management.
Hubbard was a certifiable paranoid schizophrenic, manic depressive acolyte of Alistair Crowley's satanic cult and a pathological liar of historic proportions.
I do not trust one word he ever wrote (plagiarized), more so because he made up lots of "loaded" words, and redefined lots of other words to mean other than their normal usage.
Fooling around with Hubbard and his tech opens a veritable Pandoras Box of confusion and evil, some of which may not be apparent until years later.
I don't think the Freezone should be allowed to recruit, troll, market and proseltyze all over the board.
I think it is more than generous that they have a tech section and a freezone section here on this board.
If that's not enough, then they should set up their own recruitment sites and message boards with their own moderators so they can tell people what they can and can't say.
Many scientologists of whatever flavor seem to consider any disagreement with the "tech" a personal invalidation of their "beliefs" and rights.
I don't think we should have to tippytoe around their tender feelings all the time, or listen to their Hubbardian "answers" everytime we want to discuss something.