Congratulations in getting out.
As you see it is safe to post without judgement on your private life. Yet at the same time a wide experience and multiple viewpoints on scientology itself exist here
The one thing that hasn’t been taken up is your clear origination on the NED DRD.
‘You know what you know’ is the absolutely vital point.
To put it simply, perhaps too simply; the church under Miscavige is wrong, most of what it does and says is wrong and it has a definite history of this concerning people’s clear cycles!
My own advice, and this is advice I have followed, is to get any cycle to do with auditing finished to your own satisfaction. Don’t let anyone put you off your original goal or doubt what you yourself know.
Outside the church you have freedoms, not just in your lifestyle, but that freedom means the right and ability to either neglect or follow whatever you feel you want or had set as important for yourself. The beauty, and at same time - the harsh reality, is no one will particularly hassle you or go out of their way to push you.
When I realized I was free from being at all dependent on what had become a nightmare, I contacted a blogger here called Terril Park, who is in touch with well trained people with thousands of hours of experience and will direct anyone who wants advice.
I contacted Terril and he recommended and personally knew an auditor for what I wanted, a very experienced Class VIII and I flew and he handled any past upset and I was on to my next major step super fast, in a hand full of hours – literally. This is what I personally went there hoping to achieve; it was spot on.
What was it like outside getting auditing? I was not sure what to expect. I found a pleasant environment with a nice lounge area, homely; lots of books, only about 5% had anything to do with scientology and also included all the main books written by people who had left the church.
Half of the PCs I have met have never been in the church. The Auditor regularly does cycles like yours; as I say it is not uncommon for the church these days to screw this cycle up for whatever reason...
No one will hassle you if you don’t want any more auditing. I found it amazing to just sit there and not have to talk to anyone. Sometimes there was someone else waiting to go in before me as things in other sessions had taken longer or the earlier person was late. Or perhaps when I came out there was the next person to go in. If you want to talk then you talk, but if not, then you don’t. But nothing else; no regging, no book-sellers, nothing, nothing... I found it unbelievable.
Also, no hint of evaluation or invalidation, I even met a psychologist who had had dianetics auditing and attested to clear and was continuing on... Yes, and you can move on to your OT levels and get audited NOTS etc. Everything. No unnecessary actions, no stops, no endless sec checks. No paying big bucks for crap.
It is really your call. There are many who have been really hurt and ripped-off by the so called ‘church’ who will never go back to auditing or training and would love to see the subject just fade away or worse.
As I say, you now have the freedom, not just to live as you want but to avail yourself of what you originally wanted. My only advice is that it would be so bitterly ironic not to do the things one hoped to do now that one finally can...
Do well.
Simply Revolting