I knew some people who were Scientologists and they wouldn't tell me anything about it! Really!
It was a great disssemination technique!
I wanted to be like them.
I read DMSMH and decided it was a chance to put the world to rights in the hippy, political days of the 60's.
I decided to be an auditor.
I became one. I helped people. I was helped in return and the world was begining to be put right.
I was scared of the new Sea Org. I wasn't tough enough to join. I was scared of Ron because I thought he sounded nuts, so therefore I must be nuts! I grew to love Ron, he was so amusing, so clever, so, so, so Source! I'd never imagined truth would be so cruel and vindictive, which just showed how little I knew. But Ron was giving me the education that I needed. He turned my wandering doubt into a dedicated glare.
I got others in, kept them in when they wanted to leave and "helped" them with auditing and training. We were all winning. SP's like Otto Ruess and John McMaster and Paulette Cooper deserved everything that was coming to them and Jane and Mary Sue were doing such a wonderful job of putting ethics in on the planet which need putting to rights.
Oh what fun it was! The auditing was fantastic and even better when you applied it to others. We WERE going to clear the planet! Yippee!
So what, if sometimes it was terrible and degrading? Tough, tough tough. No namby pamby theetie weetie stuff here!
Standard Dianetics - Fantastic!
Levels and Grades - even better!
New Era Dianetics - well a bit of a code break in there about fishing for a postulate - but, what the heck, LRH said that's what you did and that was good enough for me!
Urgh! All this Clear confusion!
LRH was now expecting World War III and we had to head for the sauna quick!
Ron knew what he was doing, he did, he really did. Everything was fine, really it was!
The greatest rundown ever, unlike any other - the exciting, the dynamite Happiness Rundown! A sunny sky and the wondrous wonder of life! Oh what Happiness! Happy forever, just as I had always really been.
Jesus the CofS undersold what the end result of the tech was! They had cheated me! If only every Scientologist could feel this beauty, this joy, this LIFE! So very funny, so inexpressible!
Back to delivering auditing. It was mostly HRD now. And EVERYONE loved it! It was just like the promo promised them it would be!
Now people could even clean up, in session, Scn terminals who violated the precepts. Of course that was often ethics officers or registrars or execs or Ron. But at last we had the tech to sort all the organisational madness out now! Of course they weren't allowed to know what the EP was. That was a good thing, the other grade Chart EPs were a Code break evaluation. Pity they don't know it though, maybe they'd get even more out of the rundown, become even happier!
But it was wins all round. 100% completions, zero bogs or repairs, fantastic success stories on those exciting, special HRD success story sheets. We were definitely going to clear the planet now thanks to LRH's clever rundown and David Mayo's fantastic assistance.
These WDC issues from this anonymous, mysterious "committee! were a bit wierd. I thought Ron didn't approve of government by committee? But it didn't matter we had the tech to handle everything!
Suddenly we all got declared! Every HRD auditor and C/S. All the original HRD completions. Suppressive persons every one of us!
Alone and scared and so very abandoned. Now the planet would never be put to rights - unless, unless they were right and I was indeed evil! Yes, that must be it, after all, I had done so many bad things. What
was the old unconscious conflict I was stuck in fighting? Now I'd never get the mysterious OT Levels and those wonderful Abilities Gained that used to be published on the Grade Chart. I was doomed to be total unknowing effect forever, for the rest of the duration and beyond.