We and David Most of us regret and indeed are horrified at the energy, acts of faith, support and belief that we invested in Hubbard's twisted world; yet at the time, even during very, very bad times, we were certain that we had discovered the key to a secret universe, past lives and new Scientology led civilization. We felt brighter, stronger and more worthy than all those wogs, brighter and more capable and Hubbard loved shoreing up that belief. We had blinded ourselves, locked away that screaming voice of reason in a dark, dank dungeon while our craven, addictive appites were drip-fed with Hubbard's 'spiritual drugs', we loved the buzz, the fear, terror, the burn outs and the abuse. Those that stayed, those like David, were simply able to take more abuse, were able to provide themselves with higher levels of argument to keep them there or had simply invested so much that they had no choice but to defend to the death. I both liked and hated David, he was was both an inspiration and an object of derision, he was good and he was an evil bastard and he could have had such a positive imact on the world had he served in other fields. So much more, his brilliant mind, his wit and his breadth of knowledge could have done so much for so many... or maybe not. Goodbye David, if someone as smart as you could have his life hijacked by Hubbard, then I am not such an idiot after all. I wish Sheila, my dear former friend Clair, and Neil peace and solace.