Hello all, I'm not a long vet of scientology like many of you are. I did go to a seminar there and was considering auditing, but decided not to go that direction for multiple reasons (cost and nearest church location being the main ones). I instead did many other modalities such as TM, Thought Field Therapy, Emotional Freedom Technique, and various other instruments and techniques in the space of personal development and spiritual freedom. I have come a long way, and got to a place where I felt totally in present time and effortless bliss flowing from within. Currently, however, have a situation I must handle. A few key points about it: I'm 29, and currently am on dialysis. I must either stay on dialysis or get a kidney transplant (which means heavy drugs, daily for life). I'm also dealing with what appears to be a past-life issue. It is like a heaviness that has emerged that I have not been able to shake with any of my usual methods. The biggest aspects of it are irrational fear and feeling like I fall out of present time. I feel the dialysis would prohibit me from doing anything like the Purif rundown, so I was wondering, does anyone with training have any suggestions for exercises or techniques that might be able to help me get back into present time when I feel myself drift off? Thank you in advance!