Hi everyone, I recently left the cult, I was actively in it for 20 years. Been in the staff for 4 years and in the Sea Org for some years too. I had to leave behind part of my family that is still in it... I'll never go back, so probably I never see them again. Anyhow I'm finally out of that nightmare, I'm decompressing, not easy, I feel like an alien compared to normal people. I'm 36 years old now and feel like I just got out of jail after spending my best years in it. Many people ask me about the cult, but it's really hard to explain to somebody that never experienced any of it. I live in the LA area now and trying to restart my life. I Idid a lot of reading in the last months and now I know what Scientology really is. I know how it brainwash you, using mild trance states, how it creates this thinking system that replace your mind. I trained myself to avoid using these terms and phrases when I was still inside, I noticed that somehow was kind of harmful to my mind. Recently I find out that are hypnotic words and phrases used to keep in place the thinking system. I know that was all bullshit and that the man (Lrh) was crazy to the core. So sad that I've been raised into his cult and that many others did too. The good thing is that now I really understand what freedom is and I enjoy it.