Hello everyone. I've been lurking here on and off for a bit and finally decided to open a comm line to all the other DB SPs. I joined the cult in 1973 when I was just 19. I had tremendous wins from doing the original Comm Course at LAFDN on 9th Street in Los Angeles. Larry Gorman was the sup and he was very good. He made sure we raw meat students really, really duplicated the materials and performed the TRs to perfection. It was a very different time, and most people had honest, beneficial wins applying Scientology. The character and ambience of the orgs was completely different than what you see today. There was real care on the part of the staff, who weren't subjected to nearly as much of the emotional violence and psychological torture they're subjected to today. Old timers have attested to this many times. But that was long ago and far away. May as well have been a different world. Actually, it was. Today's church bears little to no resemblance to the old orgs. The culture evolved and morphed into a distilled and perfected version of everything that was woefully wrong with the old organization. Along the way, the organization suppressed everything that was right with the organization right out of existence. I'd have to say that the CoS became what they resisted, don't you think? In my estimation, that's why most of us eventually wound up out here. Betrayal after trust is always a deal breaker. At least it is for people who haven't had the very last ounce of their humanity and personal dignity crushed out of them. What has been seen cannot be unseen. I officially resigned from the organization after reading Debbie Cook's New Years Eve email in early 2012. I'll be forever grateful to the friend who sent it to me because it connected the dots on so many of the outpoints I'd observed for so long. In short order, I granted myself permission to look at everything I'd willfully blinded myself to over the previous decades. And the rest, as they say, is history.