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Discussion in 'General Scientology Discussion' started by Emma, Feb 10, 2008.

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  1. Emma

    Emma Con te partirĂ² Administrator

    I want to thank some people.

    7 years ago in March I left Scientology. Since then I've gradually put my life back together, slowly dropped the indoctrination and done my best to counter the CoS and help those who have left the church.

    Today I went to a picket. It was something I never thought I'd do. A big part of that is the lack of critics here in Melbourne Australia, but even more than that I was scared.

    Today I had made up my mind not to go. I knew it would be a historic moment that I would miss. I knew I would be sorry I didn't go but I'd given myself enough excuses to make it right in my head to not go.

    Then I was standing in my livingroom, doing chores that had all of a sudden become important to do this day, when it occured to me that I was still scared of them and that was the real reason I didn't want to go. And that made me mad.

    So I got in my car and drove into town with my daughter.

    Initially I was just going to drive around the block honking my car horn in support. But when I got there I saw all these people who weren't afraid. Magically a car space appeared right out the front of the Org and I knew I was going to get out. As I filmed with my crappy camera with my daughter holding my hand something happened.

    I wasn't scared any more.

    This is a wonderful thing to happen to me. I was scared of them for 9 years in Scientology, and I've been scared of them for 7 years since leaving Scientology. 16 years is a long time to be frightened of a totalitarian group in this day & age in my country, Australia.

    So I want to thank every single person who, although perhaps scared themselves, speaks out against this cult.

    I want to thank the critics who have documented the crimes, written the stories, done the research and taken a stand.

    I want to thank Anonymous for having the amazing ability to, as a group (wdne) , listen & understand & change and arrange these peaceful protests that have liberated me personally from the hold Scientology had on me.

    I hope everyone who can physically make it, attends one of these protests. It was life changing for me, and I hope that it can be the start of a something that changes a whole lot more lives.
  2. Snuffy

    Snuffy Patron Meritorious

    Moving post, Emma. Thank you.
  3. Jbrazel

    Jbrazel Patron

    Good for you Emma!
  4. namaste

    namaste Silver Meritorious Patron

    That really is a major win. Glad to hear it.
  5. Dulloldfart

    Dulloldfart Squirrel Extraordinaire


    To put it in Hubbard's terms, if you can fight back against an SP (or SP group), to that extent it is not suppressive any more. The same thing happened to me in 2004 when I "came out".

    I found it very empowering.

    Fuck 'em. :)

  6. programmer_guy

    programmer_guy True Ex-Scientologist

    That's not very long ago.

    In my experience, dropping the indoctrination takes a loooong time to do... years to do.
    It took me years to do that (without the internet).

    Thanks for your story. It's very interesting and yet so common amongst ex's.

    BTW, also thanks for providing this message board at your own effort and expense.

    You are a gem.

    Best regards
  7. Free to shine

    Free to shine Shiny & Free

    I could hear the delight in your voice. :)

    It is a huge step, a life changing event.

    I couldn't physically be there but watching through your camera lens was terrific. So you were there for me too, and all the others that wanted to come but couldn't.

    Thankyou for all you do, and for going and for caring. :heartflower:
  8. Free to shine

    Free to shine Shiny & Free

    I found this on ars :

    As I sit here in the wee hours, I contemplate what has unfolded before me.
    Not just today, but the last few days. I am amazed. I always thought my generation and the ones behind it had no heart. I felt like we were concerned with money and who had more. I was afraid I was somewhat alone.
    I stand here corrected. I realize we have cares, beliefes, and an inherent knowledge of what is right and what is wrong.
    We have taken a stand, we are using our voice and our power to be heard. It is deafening.
    I thank you all.
    Thank you for the guidance.
    Thank you for the hope.
    We are humans, we are one, we are together this day.
    All my best, to you and yours, no matter who you are.

    Anonymously yours
  9. Kerry

    Kerry Patron with Honors

    Emma, do you know how amazing you are?

    Huge props for that post, and for being you.

    This was an extremely important day in so many ways. Thank you for all the voices you have awakened and those you have kept going with this board.

  10. Good twin

    Good twin Floater

    for emma

  11. b ginn

    b ginn Patron

    That is great Emma!

  12. Alan

    Alan Gold Meritorious Patron

    I remember your first terrified post on IRC come a long way babe! :happydance: :happydance: :happydance:

    Freedom from the fear of Scio is a big Ascension Experience! :thumbsup:

    Freedom to confront and permeate Scio and do something about it is an even bigger Ascension Experience! :thumbsup: :thumbsup: :thumbsup:

  13. Ladybird

    Ladybird Silver Meritorious Patron

    Great post, Emma! I am so happy for you and proud to know you and glad we are all here together at this historic time!

    Your post is a big hit over on

    Thousands are reading your words, and I am sure many who were scared to show up at a picket have been inspired by your words!

    Scientology can't hurt us anymore, if they even try all it will do is prove that everything we have been saying about the cult is true!

    :clap: :clap: :clap: :clap:

    Thank You Emma!

  14. dr3k

    dr3k Patron with Honors

    Emma is win.
  15. Kathy (ImOut)

    Kathy (ImOut) Gold Meritorious Patron

    Well Done, Emma. :clap: :clap: :clap: :clap: :cheerleader: :cheerleader: :cheerleader:

    I bet you feel a lot lighter (the load of the fear is gone) and a lot freer.:happydance: :happydance: :happydance:

  16. MarkWI

    MarkWI Patron Meritorious

    I have tears in my eyes!
    Very well done Emma!
    :clap: :clap: :clap: :clap: :clap: :clap: :clap:
  17. beyond_horizons

    beyond_horizons Patron Meritorious

    Wow ... :touched: ... Way to go Emma!

    :happydance: :winner:
  18. Awho-

    Awho- New Member

    The giggle made me go lol. Thank you for a smile! As many have today. :thumbsup:
  19. Fancy

    Fancy Patron Meritorious

    I was invited to the Buffalo, NY raid. I would have liked to gone but I have not crossed that line yet but I came close.

  20. Alanzo

    Alanzo Bardo Tulpa





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    From ( went past, this just happened. Looked like a young woman was being escorted by police away from scene with several onlookers. Est 50-60+ protestors. No further details. edit: Incident over! Two protestors are taken out by a faulty engine hood latch. Two protestors are standing on the side of the road when the spring loaded engine cover, flips open, extending 2feet over the sidewalk. One is taken to the hospital with what looks like a broken wrist and possible internal injuries. The second suffers from a cut on the stomach and a torn jacket.

    TOKYO solo picket
    Last edited: Feb 10, 2008