Escalus
Patron Meritorious
I'm what I am because I've decided that the search for answers to the mind, or a science about the mind and the soul and the spirit, or the quest for deeper insights into what-you-are, or whatever else it is that makes people look for some kind of co-ordinated explanation about all of t.h.i.s, is something I stopped needing to do. I stopped looking for that willfully, and in good conscience. It was a "determined blow" from the subject.
Because of this and the fact that I reached that place so long ago, that I find myself gaping, and a little thunderstruck, by the still present need in some of my friends here to continue looking. Well, it's a little admirable, if I am to be honest. But it is a little stunning too that, after all this time, it's still central to a lot of you. A seeker is a seeker, i suppose. I too use a modality to "organize myself." I've bought into the Christian modality and use it as a compass for myself. So it isn't that I don't understand where you're coming from, and it isn't at all that I'm saying people should just do what I've done. But it's a part of my life and not some great tent pole I feel compelled to center everything else around.
I love Jesus, but I drink a little - I think is the joke.:wink2:
Maybe it was my own defense mechanism that has me flipping off one "self-help" theory after another, or for that matter rejecting Christian fundamentalists, or laughing at the latest guru, or seriously believing there is some major problem with the minds or character of people who keep "looking" after all this time already yeah!?, but I do sometimes find it all a little stereotypical and a little funny. Like a Saturday Night Live skit, from when it was funny.
Doesn't anybody, though, just think that you can think about it too much or - as I struggle to find the words here - doesn't anybody just find living to be enough of a test tube without all the deep philosophies and reams of data and processes and methods and do it this way / no / do it that way?
Notwithstanding the times I've sat here engaged in a discussion and enjoyed the fencing matches (whether some people took it too seriously or not - or whether some truly, actually ARE the jerks i think they are ) - does anybody ever just go to a ballgame or something? Or find pleasure in just driving around? I mean - using the old Sci language - does everything have to have a significance?
It's almost like I want to say -here have a hot dog - and as an answer get a lecture about how they're bad for you.
I left Scientology to get my life back. That life included not burying myself under the Group now and the Group Always, to the exclusion of everything else. In the process of that leaving I determined, for myself, that there don't have to be deeper, meaningful explanations for things all the time.
And that's the difference.
So if I get a little loud - well........ you probably deserved it. (j/k)
Because of this and the fact that I reached that place so long ago, that I find myself gaping, and a little thunderstruck, by the still present need in some of my friends here to continue looking. Well, it's a little admirable, if I am to be honest. But it is a little stunning too that, after all this time, it's still central to a lot of you. A seeker is a seeker, i suppose. I too use a modality to "organize myself." I've bought into the Christian modality and use it as a compass for myself. So it isn't that I don't understand where you're coming from, and it isn't at all that I'm saying people should just do what I've done. But it's a part of my life and not some great tent pole I feel compelled to center everything else around.
I love Jesus, but I drink a little - I think is the joke.:wink2:
Maybe it was my own defense mechanism that has me flipping off one "self-help" theory after another, or for that matter rejecting Christian fundamentalists, or laughing at the latest guru, or seriously believing there is some major problem with the minds or character of people who keep "looking" after all this time already yeah!?, but I do sometimes find it all a little stereotypical and a little funny. Like a Saturday Night Live skit, from when it was funny.
Doesn't anybody, though, just think that you can think about it too much or - as I struggle to find the words here - doesn't anybody just find living to be enough of a test tube without all the deep philosophies and reams of data and processes and methods and do it this way / no / do it that way?
Notwithstanding the times I've sat here engaged in a discussion and enjoyed the fencing matches (whether some people took it too seriously or not - or whether some truly, actually ARE the jerks i think they are ) - does anybody ever just go to a ballgame or something? Or find pleasure in just driving around? I mean - using the old Sci language - does everything have to have a significance?
It's almost like I want to say -here have a hot dog - and as an answer get a lecture about how they're bad for you.
I left Scientology to get my life back. That life included not burying myself under the Group now and the Group Always, to the exclusion of everything else. In the process of that leaving I determined, for myself, that there don't have to be deeper, meaningful explanations for things all the time.
And that's the difference.
So if I get a little loud - well........ you probably deserved it. (j/k)