La La Lou Lou
Crusader
Pretty much everything that has mattered the most to me in life and really made it all more than worthwhile has come to me without conscious plans or "postulates" on my part. I'm kind of happy that I haven't micromanaged life more, I'm not quite executive material.
I know what you mean!
Many times I have had a feeling of too much choice. Where should I live what kind of house etc, and random decisions are useful. A friend of mine wanted to leave France but didn't know where to go, so many countries are not France. She took a pin and a map and ended up in the South of England. She could have chosen a warmer place, a friendlier place, a more exciting place but she ended up at a cold wet sea side resort and hasn't moved away after many years. You can say that she decided she was going to move out of her country but she could never be an executive type getting everything she wanted sort of gal. Perhaps that makes her a failure in life, she's not happy in many ways but I've met movers and shakers who do get what they want and they are not happy either.
There is no such thing as a free lunch. I think you can get crowns and thrones and power and influence but you need to give something back. If you don't give enough back you end up dying like trailer trash alone and unloved despite your millions. Hubbard's affirmation show that he didn't think karma affected him, he was too high up on some scale of oatyness. But he did get what he deserved in the end. Maybe some never do get their bill at the end, we can never tell.
At the same time if I need something and know what it is I usually get it, I might have to put my hands in my pocket and pull out some money, but that's just mechanics. Someone I knew was doing a cookery course and doing very well, his self esteem was coming right up and I wanted to give him a present to encourage him. I went to a jumble sale, nothing much there and I was going out empty handed when I saw a big plastic bag, not very interesting, I asked what it was and it was a bright red brand new mixer and whizzer and chopper set that had never been used but was out of it's box, they wanted 50p for it, (a dollar). It made his day. I could say that the 'universe' provided it, it did feel like that. I could say it was the little baby Jesus, or Shiva, Thor or my guardian Angel. I wanted something, not for myself but to give to someone else. I had faith that I would find it and I did, and he loved it, and that is all the secret is. But then I have faith that I will go to sleep and wake up the next day and it's always come true. One day though it won't. Somehow I have had enough food to keep this body of mine ticking over, I'm not asking the universe for a palace I'm happy with the shelter I have, I have clothes and food too I am grateful but don't have a clue what the providence I owe it all to is. Thanks providence whatever or whoever you are!