Scientology is evil. Those who join, enter initially as idealistic, naive, and gullible, and yes, Terril, at a certain point, the indoctrination does take hold, and a self-reinforcing mechanism is created whereby the formerly idealistic, naive, and gullible individual undergoes a transformation, and becomes, as you have, someone who places great value on Hubbard's excretions aka a Scientologist.
Think of Scientology as you would a shit sandwich. In the beginning, only a very tiny amount of shit is mixed in to an otherwise normal sandwich. You might notice that it has an unusual aftertaste, but hey... there's meat and cheese, and tomato, and so you don't bother complaining to the chef. Besides, all the other diners are commenting on how delicious their sandwiches are.
Now, fast forward to 5, 10, 15 years later, and now, the chef makes your sandwich almost entirely out of shit, with maybe a thin slice of tomato, just for old-times sake. And the good, winning Scientologist scarfs it down, sending his compliments to the chef, as you so dutifully do.
Read the comments that people leave after you post stuff like this. Try to think about what they're trying to tell you. You receive a wide berth on ESMB because when you act as an apologist for evil, after so many years, the only logical conclusion is that you must be full of shit.
(Hope you used your demo kit and dictionary while reading this; you can skip the clay; I don't want to restimulate anything.)