SweetnessandLight
Crusader
Thanks Panda
It's a fine line, and one that I'm going to have to find (again).
I find it difficult to be impartial if I "get into it' with someone. Let's talk about the elephant in the livingroom for a second ... Veda & Caroline.
A few days ago (before this decision as made) I posted that I wish they would go away. This was purely a result of my personal frustration at what I was seeing. I wasn't trying to be impartial. I had no need to be.
As Emma the Admin, I can't post stuff like that, even if I think it.
I've put myself in a precarious position now because I have been open in my opinions. If all of a sudden Veda or Caroline do something to get themselves infracted, it will look like it was a personal thing because I expressed myself earlier that I wished they would go away.
Today, and not because of any decisions regarding administration, I no longer wish they would go away. Things have calmed down & I'm perfectly happy to have both of them posting on ESMB, but can you see how it has compromised my position?
It's just safer for me to STFU when it gets heated.
I'll still openly post my opinions on most things to do with the undressing of Scientology. But then again I always have.
Welllllllll... I have what I think is the perfect solution to this....
Emma, get a sockpuppet Nickname/Avatar...just give very few details about your "time in" (the Cult) or make up a whole new persona happydance and use that account to speak your mind freely... Be your best ferociously original and outspoken self, and air your views totally and completely... but just as another anonymous member. You could even "infract" yourself if you get to be too rough and rowdy with someone...
Then be your loveable, balanced and neutral Emma self as an Admin for the board. I agree that when one is in a position of authority one must mind ones's words much more so that when just being a member of the "peanut gallery".
DON'T TELL anyone what your new nick/sockpuppet is... this might also help to encourage everyone to be nice to the newbies!!! (Just kidding, guys! )
Just, whatever you do, find some joy in it all! Big hugs!