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You are the Reason

Discussion in 'General Scientology Discussion' started by Frankie Greene, Nov 19, 2014.

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  1. Hey you
    Brown eyes
    Hair down to your chin
    I think about you all the time
    Remember how strong we were
    How we had the courage to question
    Only to each other
    Behind closed doors
    And I saw you crying in confusion
    My only consolation was to offer you
    My hand
    Because I was confused, too
    And I didn't have the answers.
    I just had my stories
    The traumas of my life to share
    As you shared yours
    Forbidden-style, out of session.
    Just our words, unhypnotized,
    Eyes open, looking straight at one another
    It was so.... Human.
    I tried to protect you.
    Even as the walls of my beliefs came
    Tumbling down
    Lies realized, hypocrisy exposed
    I would have stayed forever
    As long as we had each other
    To shield each other from the insanity

    But the execs didn't like us.
    They didn't like our bond.
    We were liabilities,
    We had failed.
    We wanted lives outside of it all
    Real freedom, art, humor, creativity.
    We couldn't get anyone to hand over their credit card
    Or their mind.
    And we were no good.

    You, you had no place to go,
    And I, I had to fight for my life.
    I had to move, change my number.
    I had to rebuild my life

    And you,
    I know you're still sitting there after post,
    Every day
    Locking yourself in an auditing room,
    Pouring over every green on white,
    In tears,
    Looking for an answer
    As to why you feel the way you do.
    And some days, you blame yourself
    Because Hubbard said so...
    And other days,
    You wish you could hop the first flight out
    But then you wonder,
    What would your life be then?
    What would you have left?

    Well my friend,
    The answer is
    But the opportunity to do
    What you've always wanted.

    And I know that right now
    It's easier for you to keep
    Absorbing all the doublespeak
    Until nothing makes sense
    And nothing matters
    And your mind blanks out
    And you don't have to feel
    Like you have to fight
    The captors that hold you
    And you don't have to feel

    And I don't blame you.

    Hey brown eyes,
    Hair down to your chin,
    I think about your laugh every day and
    Those terrible puns you thought were hilarious.

    And even though I left you behind,
    You are the reason I keep fighting.
  2. AnonyMary

    AnonyMary Formerly Fooled - Finally Free

    Oh Frankie! That is so beautifully said, so moving.

    Shedding some tears for you both :bigcry:
  3. bts2free

    bts2free Patron with Honors

    Frankie, there's hardly a day that goes by that I don't think about my long lost one who is still somewhere in the Sea Org. Your poem is very touching and I'm right there with you buddy.
  4. gbuck

    gbuck oxymoron

    Hi Frankie, I hope brown eyes gets to read your words.
    You've reminded me how the simplicity and clarity of genuine poetry
    can get close.
  5. Thank you! It's good to know I'm not the only one who is thinking about someone still in that they've lost. I know it's happened to probably all of us, really. But still, it's good to hear it. I'm sorry you're missing your long lost one, too.
  6. Thanks everyone. Just felt like I had to get it out of me today.
  7. Helena Handbasket

    Helena Handbasket Gold Meritorious Patron

    That's so sad, FG.

    I hope that someday there's a happy end to this story.