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brainslugged reptilian
Oh, maybe I used the wrong word. If you affect one corner, the other corners get affected too. So, theoretically, if you strengthened a corner, the other gets stronger and the reverse would hold true. That is what we were are taught but what if there is more to it?
Let's say a person loves chocolate and, so, consumes a lot. Then the affinity for chocolate grows and the person would consume nothing else. Then, as a result, the person begins to have health problems but the person is so much into chocolate that he will not abandon his love for it, even at the risk of the person's life. Would you say that the affinity of that person to chocolate expanded so much that he lost his ability to communicate and that the person lost track of reality?
It might sound silly, I mean using chocolate, but isn't that what happens to extremists that wind up being the enemies of everyone else around them? If I become the enemy of my brother because he adds milk and strawberries to his chocolate, might it be that I lost something because of my affinity to chocolate?
Just saying but it takes me beyond my search.
The "tech" is all contradictory in itself and the unusual connotations and meanings added to words are thoroughly sinister. Hubbard might have been less of an "evil genius" than basically a sloppish thinker and self-obsessed crackpot, but he certainly knew that confusion makes people exhausted, unnerved, and suggestible - and that was a pretty good incentive for him to "let go" from time to time, ever again, and just make up some impressive sounding shit.
The experience of so many people shows that only dissecting his stuff while assuming Hubbard was a mean, sociopathic asshat who strived for nothing than mentally enslaving and reshaping all people, wondrously, leads to something - precisely, to some plausible theories about seduction, confusion, hypnosis, coercion, and mind control.
Oh yeah, he did "research" and "development", at last some. He meticulously added and implemented to his "tech" whatever twists and twitches and tools he considered gave him more control, confused people even more efficient and and put them into a suggestible state, so that even more of his sociopathic "ethics" (and personality) could be imprinted on people. This, while adding coercion and peer pressure and threats and "sunk cost bias" and promises of super powers to the mix. There was no other reason for anything he ever did, than POWER.
Before you waste any more time making sense of Hubbard's essentially unworldly ARC & KRC triangles, read Mockingbird's dissection of the ARC & KRC triangles. Makes much sense to me. It was, as everything else in Scientology, all just an instrument of causing confusion, enslavement, reprogramming and control.
Dissecting Hubbard's gobbledegook while taking it serious, in the way of assuming he wrote basically honest and as a kind of (if but somewhat confused) spiritual leader or philosopher, leads to exactly nothing than your own confusion. Because sorry, people found out it's all just based on an enormous fallacy that renders all the subsequent conclusions useless, and that is that Hubbard was an "innovative thinker", a "genius", that he had, despicable lifestyle aside, some "really good ideas". Wrong. He was no genius, not even an evil one. He was just a fucking self-obserbed crackpot who liked to make up stuff. You have to let go of that thought that he really made up something magically useful (while being utterly despicable IRL) and didn't just here and there implement stolen details, like (back then!) outdated forms of therapy, or mantras from Crowley, that type of "free yourself" formulas. That's the cheese in the trap, no more, and the deeper one crawls into the trap, the lesser cheese one will find, and then, bang.
This subliminally friendly to neutral picture Hubbard is a leftover of your cult think, and face it, you're still stuck in it, no matter what you've read meanwhile. After all, these negative informations about Hubbard appeared strangely distant and abstract to you, right? I don't want answers to this because it's really just assumptions (and everybody should know that), but I suppose you either didn't read as much negative stuff about Hubbard as you claimed, or you just "scanned" the pages, kinda not wanting to look. Exactly this would be a sign that you're still entrapped to some degree. READ IT AGAIN. Dare to face the inevitable conclusions, the most likely theories about his actual motivations, his personal motives, the real reason FOR EACH BIT OF THE "TECH".
The "tech" and the fact that Hubbard was an egoistical, schizophrenic "meanie" can and should NOT be separated, as what he intended with it wasn't JUST to sell some books, and to form a loose circle of people using that "tech" on each other. If Scientology would have stayed on that stage of organization, with Hubbard "just" sitting in its center fat and lazy, making up stuff and having others to test its efficiency or truthfulness while not really commenting on it or terrorizing and abusing anybody (or telling them to do that to each other), as esoterics gurus use to do, THEN it would have made some sense if some people, who got something out of his work, said "oh well he is a meanie and a drunkard and really very narcissistic, but I think he had some good ideas, and I think he had a dream and that was to help people, and that this is the main goal of his work, - maybe aside from selling books and lectures".
It wouldn't have made Hubbard's methods one bit more scientific, or his results one bit more impressive, but it would have represented less of a contradiction than what one has to face if looking at Co$, in all its abysmal horror, and then looking at the "tech", and then looking at Co$ again - at whichever stage of its history.
What happened with Dianetics and Scientology, inevitably, showed Hubbard's true intentions, his real plans, his true desires and goals. Every bit that was added to the "tech" and all that gross redefinitions of "ethics" showed just what he really was after. It (soon) became a strict, controlling, terroristic organization, in which, ideally, everybody was a brainwashed, obedient slave, dissociated from reality and their feelings, an utterly helpless puppet, unable even to think of rebellion. Dare to deprogram yourself of your delusions, making use of the facts and explanations that are already out there.
Another example, one that works with many exes. Rhetorical questions, again. I don't want answers here, it suffices if you give them to yourself. What's your opinion about psychiatric drugs, or ECT, or psychotherapy, hmm? "Mostly bullshit" or "not quite effective" or "they don't really know about the mind and are just guessing around" would be the best guess probably, along with some vague statement about Hubbard's "basically so much more innovative approach". And that's so far from the truth it's just gross - it means to take the ramblings of a crackpot over actual science because they sound more GRANDIOSE, and because the crackpot and guru understands exactly one thing: how to make auspicious PROMISES - when all that shit really should be SUSPICIOUS to anybody.
Now, in 2015, many ex Scientologists still have an opinion about psychology and psychiatry that is 1) stuck at the stage of the 1960s or whenever they got into the cult, because that's the last time they looked at that theme open-minded, 2) soaked with cult indoctrinated prejudices and phobias.
One doesn't have to remember these details consciously to believe in them very much. They have been programmed, deeply. They have become HABITS.
Actually, to remember the cult as a source of a specific information or opinion (in the form of Hubbard lectures or Scientologist friends or a casual remark by some staffer) opens the door to deprogramming oneself.
So, try to remember the actual sources of your informations, your opinions, your biases, your assumptions, your HABITS. Is it from the cult, or from the outside world? And is it really up to date? Hasn't science maybe made some progress meanwhile? Havn't they found some other psychiatric drugs meanwhile besides of Valium and Haldol, isn't ECT conducted under narcosis, and isn't Freud considered basically a kook and of historical interest only, amongst serious psychotherapists? Was Hubbard even up to date, or didn't he just become an "enemy" of psychiatry even decades earlier, and, based on his own bad education and arrogance, basically made up stuff? And so on...
People can be very much "out", truly just using what works for them after a while (cold "confront" in certain situations where a truly harassing or aggressive adversary is not worthy of fair treatment, for example), while they are on some levels still be entrapped in the cult think even after decades because they got no new informations on some topics meanwhile, no matter for how long they are out. In your case I indeed recommend very much to get at least a textbook about psychology or psychotherapy (because of your interest, not because of a need for therapy I mean), and probably look at some philosophic stuff as well, whatever pleases you, but I'd strongly recommend not just to jump to other pseudosciences, as you now strive very much to do, with desperately seeking out Dianetics "offsprings", or whatever sounds similarly crackpot-ish. If that feels cozy and familiar and nice to you and sufficiently "promising", it's just the WRONG thing to do! FUCK THIS SHIT!
There are some things called PSEUDOscience and it's called PSEUDOscience for a reason. It's based on nothing. It's based on wild assumptions. It's all based on adventurous, wild, free-wheeling, uncontrolled, "impressive", kooky thoughts, and in most cases the people who are following them do believe in their pipe dreams at last to some degree but just as much they want to sell their books or lectures, so there is a fucking STRONG incentive just to spin tales, to make up bullshit, if it's only appealing to certain people, drawing people towards it, to buy books, lectures, pseudo-psychotherapy, ultimately, and salvation. IT'S A TRAP. These people are obsessed with their own grandiosity, and whether it is part of that grandiose picture to be a savior, it's still all just a product of megalomania and narcissism, the whole body of work, and that mere hypnotic IDEA of altruism, of being helpful, doesn't make their theories and the "tech" of these loonies ONE BIT MORE WORKABLE. It's all just pipe dreams and, if it's a real cult, it's also about power and control for the cult leader.
Instead, stick with REAL science, whichever one; and you'll see, soon, how much sense it all makes, and how easy understanding and making conclusions for oneself based on facts and theories and experiments really is, what the essential tools and rules of scientific thinking are, and that, wondrously, other than with the ever-so-vague pseudoscience crap, these conclusions will often be the same than other people (laymen and experts) made.
That's the difference. You get that wonderful "aha" effect when dealing with real science, you consider something and then read how others came to the same conclusions. That but does NOT happen with crackpot pseudoscience, because in these cases always only the guru/author/blogger knows the theory, and it can't really be explained, because, uh, it's so sublime and wonderful, or, yeah, they really have the nerve to call it all a BUSINESS SECRET. Fuck Idenics & Dianetics & Landmark & all other offsprings of that toxic lunativ egoistical well Hubbard and his fellow crackpots, FUCK them.
Anyone can buy a textbook on psychotherapy and after a while understand what's it all about, and why it works, and why sometimes not, and where there are still insecurities, or why the therapist and the patient often have to "try things", because we haven't yet found out enough to determine who really needs what kind of therapy, and the experts speculate all the time how these therapies and their "tools" possibly can be improved. That's a GLARING contrast to "technologies" that come with a ready set of "tools" and "100% workability" and "95% success rate", and the ever so "workable" excuse "if it doesn't work, that's because it has been applied wrongly, or because the person is a hidden "suppressive"/"black magician"/"witch""...
With crackpot pseudoscience, it's always "ohh look at my gorgeous theory it's so wonderful, wonderful, wonderful, wouldn't it be sooo great if it's true ... let's see what suggestive fallacious bullshit clues we can find that it's true (and aliens built it), if only I could believe...".
With science it's "ohh look at these clues, there might be a correlation, let's make the experiment, that's so interesting, interesting, interesting ... and frankly I've no fucking clue what will be the outcome of that experiment, but here we go anyways".
That's a difference.
You won't find the second kind of stuff in any of these PSEUDOsciences. That's why it's PSEUDOscience. Someone loves a theory. Someone wants to dream, to fantasize, to believe. Someone is obsessed by an idea, but it's not the idea of a possibility, and as such essentially a question, it's but very much THE ANSWER. The kooks think they already have the ANSWER, or maybe all of them. Someone wants to make money off it, literally A LIVING, and tries to make other people to believe in it, usually for a profit.
And if people criticize it, if they just ask for proof, if they ask for verification, for real success rates and for the actual methods and the theories and the fucking MATHS behind it all, the kooks don't try to explain, no, they instantly get BITCHY. And why? Yeah, guess! BUTT-HURT, what else! Because their pet pipedream is "attacked", when really just people want to verify it with scientific tools. And they really have NOTHING but their pipedream, no real theories, no evidence, no methodology, no means of verification. It's all just a big, fancy, exciting, adventurous, megalomaniacal, very provitable DREAM. Fucking kooks are fucking schizophrenics, and often enough fucking GREEDY.
I wish you good luck on your journey but ONLY if you try out REAL SCIENCE, which for you is, for now, equal to TEXTBOOK SCIENCE, because sorry, you have not much of a clue and at this point no right to be adventurous and to feel like having all the answers, or even knowing which QUESTIONS to ask, nor are you already wielding all the necessary "tools". That's crackpot thinking. It's a fantasy. The first step is still to know you know nothing. Touch no "ologies" whatsoever if it's not something teached on universities, that's a pretty simple formula, and if you make that your guideline you'll waste less time with dysfunctional pipedreams. If you really have no clue what's SCIENCE and what NOT, just look up in Wikipedia whether something is considered a PSEUDOscience or not, before you waste your time with it. Don't just favor another soothingly "promising sounding" pseudoscience crap.
Hint, if it's promising sounding, it's PSEUDOscience. And it will lead you nowhere.
Another hint, try "popular science" stuff if you're insecure about which theme interests you. It can be a waste of time, it's a distraction but at last not misleading.
I strongly suggest to really begin a theme with an introductory textbook, because they often have a general section about "theory of science", e.g. scientific "tools" and the scientific approach. A specialized textbook, in that way, might be "unreadable", when lacking too much of the vocabulary and general understanding. (I once bought a book about a medical theme I was vaguely interested in, only to discover it was practically unreadable for me as it really was written for people who are already doctors. Bugger. 50€! I recommend to look into the books if you have the opportunity.)
I can make recommendations per PM, I just won't bother with a list (complete with Amazon links etc) here and now. (To make it short, the names of the textbooks can be a tad confusing. Basically they are identified by their authors. Psychology student 1: "So WTF, the name of that book is "Psychology"? I get 400 Amazon results for that." Student 2: "Yeah, the Zimbardo.") Also, these books are expensive and should be bought second-hand.
I also do not recommend to read the philosophers and demagogues all too soon, ancients aside. Many of them are more methodical and honest than the modern (often money and fame obsessed) "kooks", but apparently what many of them did is just nothing than to revel in pipe dreams about existence and the nature of God and (yes, I'm sarcastical - somewhat) drinking lots of absinth. Many of them in the end contributed very little to the theory of science as we know it today, and just took each other's fallacies and prejudices and christian thinking, meticulously shaping them into more elaborate fallacies and more scienc-y sounding theological arguments, or maybe here and there removing a fallacy. It's a sort of science, yeah, but they often were pretty blase or terribly devout which is why I call them so useless and unworldly in the end. A student of philosophy knows to recite and to meticulously compare them all, and the relations between them. Which is also a sort of science, and follows scientific rules, but also is incredibly useless. For anything and all and especially one's life.
I have a slightly better opinion about ... surprise ... Nietzsche. I found him very readable, and not at all unworldly. Along with Machiavelli.
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