confusedgurl
Patron
Here's me.
Introduced into Scientology by my parents (as most children are...) did the courses and auditing with no thought when I was younger. As I got older, I was punished/reprimanded for NOT being interested or wanting to do other things, and was rewarded for doing it/interest level. (What do you think I chose?)
Now I'm in full-on confusion and misery in the fact that if I do (and I want to) decide to "leave" or however you want to say, It's going to be HARD. My family will suffer and so will I. I won't be allowed to be friends with my friends anymore and my parent's lives will be affected immensely. I don't even really have anyone I can talk to about it (especially relatively unbiased people.)
I feel like Scientology checks out with a TON of the "cult" points, except the abuse. That part I've NEVER witnessed.
I am confused, lost, afraid, and fucked up right now from all of it. I've got a fucking clear head on my shoulders for the most part. Most people I know find me very observant and intelligent. I have been fed what I am starting to think are lies my entire life and I can't be blamed for this, can I?
Help? (Ps. PLEASE DO NOT REPLY WITH HATE AGAINST SCIENTOLOGY.)
Legitimate help, information, suggestions? Something?
(Pps. Under 18 here, so...still dependent.)
Introduced into Scientology by my parents (as most children are...) did the courses and auditing with no thought when I was younger. As I got older, I was punished/reprimanded for NOT being interested or wanting to do other things, and was rewarded for doing it/interest level. (What do you think I chose?)
Now I'm in full-on confusion and misery in the fact that if I do (and I want to) decide to "leave" or however you want to say, It's going to be HARD. My family will suffer and so will I. I won't be allowed to be friends with my friends anymore and my parent's lives will be affected immensely. I don't even really have anyone I can talk to about it (especially relatively unbiased people.)
I feel like Scientology checks out with a TON of the "cult" points, except the abuse. That part I've NEVER witnessed.
I am confused, lost, afraid, and fucked up right now from all of it. I've got a fucking clear head on my shoulders for the most part. Most people I know find me very observant and intelligent. I have been fed what I am starting to think are lies my entire life and I can't be blamed for this, can I?
Help? (Ps. PLEASE DO NOT REPLY WITH HATE AGAINST SCIENTOLOGY.)
Legitimate help, information, suggestions? Something?
(Pps. Under 18 here, so...still dependent.)