A little digression won't hurt
Alright, it was hard to find a cutoff point on the last post, and I wanted to take a break from the ever rambling nature that seems to pour out of the keyboard, because boy it is amazing how difficult it is to just get from point A to B in a story. So I will still jump around, in my usual circuitous non sequitur way if and you don't mind
I partly interrupt where I was going at the end of the last post in the story as this is important to my (finding myself) and how I rose above being a failure as a scientology staff member, and still the part that organized scientology, the church, played in "NOT" helping this individual only compounding things by its nature.
I do not care to argue my not "making it go right" on staff or the "I'm responsible for the condition one is in" cliche's. I had potential to be able to do many things suitable to my personality if the opportunities presented themselves and I proved and demonstrated to be an honest, ethical, reliable good worker in a real company many times before and after scientology. Just sayin.
While an org staff member in late 1986 after working 5+ years for a scientologist owned Tire company that enventually failed due partly to the owner pulling most of the money resources out for Flag handling's etc over a number of years, I left the company about 6 months before it was padlocked by the IRS, gone out of business.
I then started working part time for another scientologist owned and run company. In my mind it was still only considered temporary because I thought pretty soon, scientology would clear the planet and I wouldn't have a need for other fish to fry.
Just prior to working for this company, I developed back muscle, joint and nerve problems, that I tried to alleviate by going to a scientology chiropractor, but even with the staff discount I could not seem to get very far in handling it with out running out of money as noted below is what it took to address these issues.
I had also gone down to the religious freedom crusade and sleeping on a 1 inch foam pad on the ground for 3 months in the basement garage at CCI. I want to talk about that another time.
Every day I'd be hunched over one side or the other until I could straighten out but be in significant pain. I also developed an arthritic vertebra in my neck and middle back and when I would sit and do telex's it would start burning and go on for hours until I was done, but I bit my tongue and soldiered on till the end. It would cause my arms and hands to go numb and I'd have to routinely shake them out to get relief, it forever made it difficult and un-enjoyable to play guitar, however I am currently managing better. One of the original interests of scientology was thinking it was going to help me become a better musician, lets see how that fleshes out.
The last couple years on staff, I used to go to the SSO (staff section officer) every other week or more to find out the progress of getting a auditing assist program to help since it was obviously something coming from my case right? There never seemed to be anyone qualified or available for staff members . I haven't exactly gotten into the anxiety/depression issues yet. By the end of my 3rd contract (2 - 5 years, then a 2 1/2yr) nothing really happened with auditing or assists.
Then end of the road for me came and I managed to get off staff surprisingly easy without going through a routing form finding a replacement
, I said I was done, I was so apathetic. But somehow I was going to generate money to go OT and get out of the rat race.
I believe that it was the years of being on staff starting almost immediately and because of my type of personality (being the sensitive type you know) the particular stress it caused me induced and partly brought into existence these painful conditions, I did have scoliosis and maybe just another piece of the puzzle but exacerbated.
It was not until just a few years ago that I spent about $5K on intensive chiropractic treatments massage work that helped eliminate the majority of the effects I had been going through which lessened my stress levels.
Where was/am I...
The owners of this new company, an OT5 (boy could he dramatize) and his wife a nice lady, my senior at the org, were basically "tax protesters". They had also previously built up and sold one of the largest business of its type in the area then started this new one.
It was a company that made container pottery on a production basis. There were some "artistic" items but for the most part it was just pumping out the vases, containers, planters, cups, bowls, etc. About half were thrown/made on the wheel and the rest slip cast into plaster molds. It was interesting that my mom did hobby ceramics for a dozen years up until a couple years before I started working at the pottery company with about 8 people including the owners at the time, and a few non scientologists when I started.
One of the 'wog' employees reported to the government about being required to be claimed on a 1099 (sub contractor) form and working piece rate in the shop. I believe the law regarding sub contracting was that if it is a continuing or long term service one provides to the company and works within the building/plant or on the grounds/property on a regular basis producing the product, one is not a sub contractor but an employee. Which then workmans comp, matching S.S. payments etc kick in. Something I kind of remember the church of scientology having staff do, was file 1099 forms, hhmmm.
I'm not sure and can't remember more fully the story but the DSA or who ever, didn't like the scientologist owners being tax protesters and as a result they sold the business to a new non scientologist owner. I don't know what has become of the 2 scientologist I liked the wife, R., my senior in the org. I continued with the new owner who was fairly decent person and I was now on official payroll.
This was my meat, bread butter and gravy income source as a staff member. After my first marriage ended in 1985 I shared or rented rooms in scientologists houses up and until I left staff in '90 and ventured into the real world free from letter writing, nightwatch, event participation every other weekend etc etc etc...and now had my own apartment.
The last few years on staff I just started working part time at the org and full time with the pottery company.
During this time I became fond of the subject and creation of pottery and studied it on my own, it is one of the oldest occupations in human existence, besides prostitution, and was partly up my alley with my inclination of liking to work with my hands, make and fix things.
It was not forecasted that the ceramic pottery industry would in the not too distant future start to suffer a decline in the US, due to imports and high cost of workmans comp,. this industry being one of the highest health risks and insurance costs. I didn't necessarily start out thinking this would become my eventual career path either.
By 1987 business for the company slowed down some and I was laid off. I went on unemployment, but because I had become interested in more facets of ceramics and pottery, in between looking for new work, I would almost daily come into the shop on my own time for a few hours (almost full time) to use the facilities (those too) and I taught my self how to make plaster casting molds for slipcasting for the most part. I took a couple items the company had problems producing and improved it saving time and losses. I then created a couple new items for the casting line all on my own time but with the companies materials and space. The company had been buying molds from other large ceramic supplier dealers at a premium cost. Though I admit that I did copy most of the commercial molds we were currently using but only for in house use and not reselling them.
This opened a whole new avenue for the company to save money on "tools"/ molds and being able to introduce more unique and alternative items that weren't produced by every other ceramic production companies buying the same commercial molds and so forth, but by additionally making our own line of products that saved from being thrown on the wheel when competent throwers were becoming hard to come by.
I was now hired back and though I wasn't making that much per hour I did get a raise. I ventured into making a few models of items which went into the line up. Some items required a complex mold system to produce them and I became quite proficient in figuring it out. This is a niche skill and mostly harbored in the larger industries, there were many other things about mold making but I learned the intermediate skills that went a long way.
The business scaled back to minimal employees, my friend Scott the thrower eventually quit to go his own independent way, and the owners son and daughter (20, 30 somethings adults)came to work in the shop as production and sales and then me doing most of the production. There seemed to be occasional squabbles between the "kids" or disagreements with "dad" which was uncomfortable to be in area when it was happening.
When the wife of owner died a few years later the business was put up for sale and a new owner came on the scene.
Once again I will end off to work on more.
Brian