I had no idea until I was audited on NOTS, how family and tribes stick together. "Blood is thick" is an understatement. I saw tribes of people and their people behind them. Entire tribes in my space and some of them I hung on to and would not audit out or even attempt to face because it was not an aberrative element that was a glue to hold us together. You go to many places on the globe as I have, and find people in Italy, Spain, Mexico and Israel that will not put Scientology above the family. "Never withdraw allegience once granted" is a code that was lived by long before the term "Scientology" was coined.
It is wrong to force people to violate their own code of honor.
I myself finally left, when I was asked to do just that.
Scientology is a new and fragile movement. And a very short and temporary adventure. From the bottom to the top.
Your honor is something you have to carry with you through eternity.
And it was what bought us all in to the good fortune of the practices we have embraced.
I always refused to turn against anyone in the church for any reason, even people declared. I refused to inherit other people's enemies because of paper saying I should do so.
I was confronted a few times about this by CMO or other people, mainly ethics officers, and just said it was not possible for me.
It must have been O.K. because nobody ever took me in to a court of any kind for refusing to turn my back on someone.
I didn't understand the wives that turned against their husbands, the husbands that turned against their wives, the children and parents that turned on one another due to this dance with "self improvment".
I do understand that no one loved Hubbard enough to change the policies that bought his knowledge down and cover his back.
I've loved a lot of people that made serious mistakes, and I loved them enough to cover their back on these.
Hubbard never wrote a policy forbidding anyone to love him in this way.
He not only did not have love, he did not have friends.
He had blind fear worshippers that in the end sabatoged as well as could be done his work of value.
The most awesome tragedy I have ever seen.
He was right when he wrote that very few people knew what love was.
Love is an unconditional element.
It's above ethics.
You think OSA doesn't know who I am?
You think OSA wouldn't like to put me up on religious freedom web site?
You think OSA hasn't tried?
Noone will come forward to say something negative about me.
Maybe I didn't start a new religion.
Maybe I have only helped a little compared to others.
But I never hurt anyone when I was involved with Scientology.
And the people that knew me knew I cared about the people in front of me.
Even the people in the Church know I care about them.
You can't deny that love and caring about other people is a positive magick.
And you only get into problems for yourself or with others when this magick is interupted.
All you really have to do on this planet to have the red carpet roll out in front of you, is to care about the person in front of you.
You can blame things on Hubbard, the Sea Org, the tech, the policy, but when it all comes down to an essential WHY, it is all because someone wouldn't or couldn't care about the person in front of them.
And this is in every arena of chaos and confusion.
How long can people blame a dead man and a body of knowledge for all of the people bankrupt of care?
That is injustice and itself an indicator of emotional bankruptcy.
Every disagreement I had I voiced before I left, and I sent DM a few letters.
Do I think he ever got them? No.
But if he didn't it was by his own orders to keep critisism off his lines, not by the fact that I could not care about him and his church.
I still think the people who protest on these forums do so not from hate, but from love of the game and in hopes that someday, in someway, someone will be able to know about what needs to be fixed and actually do it and care about them for caring enough to say something.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y9KC7uhMY9s
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2hzxxoVCobQ
T.I.