Hi Markus,
Long time no see..
I read your thread yesterday (every response) and I got tears in my eyes.. there is so much to life to enjoy. How can we truly live our lives if we cannot feel the world around us? There is so much joy and yes, there is sorrow too. I believe, we all have a cross to bear. I think I bear mine... but those are things that I love in life and I love being a wog (good and bad.)
I can feel any emotion I want to! I can laugh! I can cry and I cherish everyone of those emotions. I embrace every person I meet with all my heart, even if they are considered low tone.
Actually, the low tones and my own ones too, makes me a better person because it teaches me to appreciate what I have and the things I've gone through.
"Emotions are wonderful things without them how do we love? Without love how do we care? Without care how do we live?" :confused2: I don't know!
I have a condition for you, it's a mouthful and it may require some time to really, really get it but I thought of it when reading your thread...
and listening to all those lovely songs... I love them! I truly love them and I so appreciate life after the Sea Org. Every day I live now is a pleasure! That is how bad the SO was for me.
Ok, so I may be considered an emotional wreck but I am not. I am as stable as anyone else but maybe my difference is that I accept life for what it is well, maybe....
So, here is my word/definition and answer to your question:
PTRS - Condition
Psychological Thought Reform Syndrome a self imposed condition of disassociation from common emotions such as empathy or sympathy in the form of displaying an unemotional response or “cold heartless” in affected situations, typically as the result of oppressive acts by a perpetrator aimed at inferring and manipulation (usually over an extensive period of time), gaining full emotional, psychological and physical control rendering its victim powerless to maintain any self natural instincts or ability of rational thought processing or self determinism over his or her own decisions indifferent from the perpetrator’s own points of views thus rendering its victim powerless by forcing its victim into submission through means of depravation or denial of basic humans needs such as sleep, proper nourishments, medical care coupled with the enforcement of physical hard labor and various forms of isolation eventually leaving the victim dysfunctional in any other environment except for the one created by the perpetrator.
Those victims tend disconnect any emotions or reaction to any situations in a robotic or matter-of-fact like manner most likely self imposed, as the victim often find themselves to believe the only useful life in existence is the one portrayed by its perpetrator and therefore deny or suppress prior thought processing or experiences or self existence as invalid, false or untrue.
Did I hit the "Nail on the Head" – NOTH (as moth but with an N)
Nut In The Nagen – NITN (nitten)
THAT is my word for what is happening...
Bz
Honey Love,
Bee Sting