ChurchOfCylontology
Patron with Honors
Thanks! And great advice! I've been thinking about it, to see if I can scrape up something, and I realised that's exactly why I didn't leave earlier! There was nothing that I witnessed that I could point to as a crime. Just a lot of "doesn't make sense" stuff, that there was always some kinda BS answer for, if you asked. However, when I get my story down I will review my experience with a critical eye, and if I find anything I disagree.... hold on a sec! Something just came to my mind. As far as I know, in my country (South Africa), there are certain rules that have to be followed in terms of types of organisations. For example, I don't think you are allowed to raise funds without a fundraising number, which has to appear on your stationery. Then there's the minimum wage thing....
I guess I'm gonna have to do some homework, find out what the rules are, and report anything that's not okay. Isn't that, after all, what Ron says to do?
I'm glad that you are thinking about it all, and please...as many have stated here....please go at your own pace with your healing. It is a journey that will give you amazing perspective and wisdom.
One example that may illustrate some of the illegal activity that sometimes isn't thought of until later, after people leave - Those in the Sea Org that travel to foreign countries to work in foreign orgs have their passports kept under lock and key while in their host country and not able to move about or return home due to lack of access to their passport.
Keeping your passport from you is illegal and a sign of human trafficking. Upper mgmt in the SO justify it with many lies, but it is highly illegal in most countries including the US. If this happened to you (especially in the US) it may be worthwhile reaching out to the US Consulate or Embassy in your area to report that it happened to you (with dates, details, etc).
So it may be little things that were 'explained away' to you but just didn't seem RIGHT. If possible, and if it isn't too painful, try to recall when you felt that inner doubt and what events triggered those doubtful feelings. If you suspect it may be a crime, then outreach some of the fantastic and trustworthy exes on this board for advice. Emma, Tikk, Magoo, etc, are very good at being sounding boards and helpful. Tory (Magoo) even puts her personal phone number on the Internet for anyone that wants help or has questions.
I adore your courage and I'm glad you're taking the bull by the horns by demystifying your identity.