Mick Wenlock
Admin Emeritus (retired)
Just a brief introduction. As 20-somthing college kid I became involved with Scientology and thought it would be the salvation of the world. My experiences in the first 5 years were great. I went from a novice to OT III in 4 years or so, and continued with auditor training after that. I knew Scientology would catch on but as the years progressed I wondered why Scientology continued to be held in disrepute. I stayed faithful, and in the early 1990s, continued up to OT VII. I was so dedicated that I attested to completing "The Level" not once but twice. When I was on OT VII for the third time (Golden Age of Tech version) I finally stopped auditing. In general, The Level sucked. I was worse off by daily auditing on OT VII because it's a bunch of crap!
Still, for some reason, I remained faithful to Scientology. I justified my continued adherence because "The Tech" wasn't fully understood or being applied. Little did I know that the maelstrom that is Scientology can't be fully understood or applied by anyone. Scientology is a goat fuck of immense proportions.
As many other Scientologists did I faded away from the group. Easy for me because I didn't work for a Scientology business nor did I have many Scientology friends; I had little to lose socially. Personally there was more to loose. My family were mostly all Scientologist including my kids. So I had to keep up appearances.
Eventually my spouse divorced me. My spouse stayed with Scientology and took our kids in the process (I was the "SP", after all). Scientology's version of shuning (Disconnection) was applied and I lost my family. While I couldn't care less about my spouse I do care about my kids. They're over 18-years old and technically adults, really, but they're still kids. They're mistakenly trying to find salvation in Scientology as I did in my 20s.
I stayed in Scientology for far too long. Was I a fool? Yes, in many ways I was. But I believed in the "star-high" goal Hubbard had set for us. Little did I know that he had no practical plan for mankind. Scientology was all "postulated reality"; something Hubbard had imagined would become reality if enough people agreed.
So for now I'm "Spectator". Watching, observing, learning, applying. At some point I'll be able to reveal my identity but only after my kids are safe from Scientology.
Thank you all for being here and posting.
Spectator
Welcome to the ESMB safe harbor! and welcome to the company of :
"Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your teeming shore"
Good luck indeed and I look forward to hearing your story whenever you feel it is safe for you to tell it!